ღCelesღ Your Kingdom is Crumbling

To this day.

I still remember.

Sometimes when traveling around the city, I still remember. It's like when I pass through the Brooklyn or Manhattan Bridges, I see the skyline and it triggers that day a decade ago. Because I miss seeing those two buildings standing taller than the buildings surrounding it.

Mom shuffles through our old photo albums because my cousins are marrying. The last time I saw my British cousins were back in '98, and the only photos we have were on Ellis Island, and those photos were shot with the Twin Towers in the background.

I actually had a post about 9/11 although the topic was on the validity of conspiracy theories, so I'm not gonna repeat what I said back then. But from the post I still remember the exact time when my biology class was notified. I was only in the 6th grade. At the time...well time slowed down and I ended up memorizing the clock on the wall after the news. That's how I know, and I don't think that could be erased from my memories. Although, it HAS been a decade and now the minute hand gets more vague as each year passes by.

I feel like later in my life I would just remember it was only a couple of hours later and not 10:30. I used to know the exact times of the two attacks (not the Pentagon) and now I only remember one. 8:46am, and even then I admit, I'm not 100% sure.

But at the time when I first heard, lunchtime was different. It was somber, although I didn't dwell too much on it, like 6th graders playing cards. However there were whispers of other kids' parents or relatives who were near the area. Then I was worried for Dad, since he drove a limo and most of his business was in Manhattan. My stomach kinda dropped as I went home and flicked on the TV to find there were no channels available, except for the really crappy ones based in New Jersey. And all they showed were planes hitting the buildings. The WTC on fire. In an endless loop. I shut it off and played my VHS tapes that were filled with singing lions and mice, and Cinderella and things that were far, far away from my reality.

The few days after, they showed a man falling from the building. It was horrifying. That was played repeatedly too.

I did not feel normal. Normal was a time when I didn't think about Manhattan, when we didn't have to apply for aid from FEMA because Dad nearly lost his job because of 9/11. When we have to be cautious of even stepping on Manhattan Island. When people talk about the dust pervading the whole of NYC for weeks, months after.

I started feeling better when the radio came back on. When Elvis Duran and Z100 came back on, and went on with their funny morning shows like nothing happened. I don't remember crying.

In fact, I don't remember the immediate days after 9/11. Whenever I see newspaper articles back in 2001, they're all surreal because I don't remember it.

I am reminded of all these whenever I see that particular spot in the Manhattan skyline. And today I was triggered when the 9/11 Memorial Special was on the History Channel when I was at the gym.

Sometimes I wonder if I can watch something like that without being reminded, without the images being played like automatically in my head.
Lightning ☝ REALISM YO

[in progress] Soul Sister 4/?

Fandom: Final Fantasy XIII
Title: Soul Sister
Characters/Pairing: Lightning, Serah, eventual OCs, hint of future Farroncest
Warnings: Angst, mention of death, shifting POV, language and violence later on
Rating: M
Notes: Bit of a time skip here. I love showing things out-of-order. Here is where the fic earns its M rating. Also I'm horrible at making up names. It's a bit shorter than other chapters but really, the whole scene is like 10000 words, and very difficult to put a nice clean cut to it.

// Prologue\\//Chapter 1\\//Chapter 2\\


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P4//Naoto//Top o th' morn

[complete] Centerfold

Fandom: Persona 4
Characters/Pairings: Naoto/Rise
Rating: K+/ PG
Warnings: Spoilers for September

Note: This is a fill for the P4 kink meme, and it's on the temp one because Kanji's missing. Prompt was anything Naoto/Rise. Title based on the song of the same name by J. Geils Band.

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P3P//Hamuko//Wind

Resurrected Meme

Because I might-have-not-so-much-would-say-I've-gotten-a-bit-of-the-writing-bug again. Also hello again, flist, and have a recycled meme, especially for the writers.

When you see this, post an excerpt from as many random works-in-progress as you can find lying around. Who knows? Maybe inspiration will burst forth and do something, um, inspiration-y.

NOTE: These are all my WIPs *and for collabs, from my share of the writing*.


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P4//Naoto//Top o th' morn

[complete] Waking Up

Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Characters/Pairings: Cloud, Fenrir and some birds
Rating: K/G
Warnings: None
Notes: I had AC!Cloud in mind when I wrote it, so it's set around that time. Originally this was supposed to be a fill for birgitriddle over at ff_santa but seeing as I'm over 7 months late, and didn't hit the 1000 word requisite (I do apologize for the lateness!) it might be better if I posted it to my personal journal instead.

The prompt was "sounds of nature". Title taken from OneRepublic's album of the same name.

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Mulan: Who is that girl I see?

[in progress] Soul Sister 3/?

Fandom: Final Fantasy XIII
Title: Soul Sister
Characters/Pairing: Lightning, Serah, eventual OCs, hint of future Farroncest
Warnings: Angst, mention of death, shifting POV, language and violence later on
Rating: M
Notes: I realize this is 3000 words, and all it was a conversation and a flashback. Either I've been watching too many Tarantino flicks or I REALLY love dialogues.

// Prologue\\//Chapter 1\\

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♂ReiMina♀// Hush lil baby

[In Progress] Soul Sister Part 2/?

Fandom: Final Fantasy XIII
Title: Soul Sister
Characters/Pairing: Lightning, Serah, eventual OCs, hint of future Farroncest
Warnings: Angst, mention of death, shifting POV, language and violence later on
Rating: M
Notes: Beta'd by me, as a little present for finishing this semester. (I still have to pack and leave the dorm). And I appreciate all the readers who are still sticking to this story. I know I could've updated much earlier, and it's nice to read the reviews here and on FF.net.

Bonus points if you know the inspiration behind the academy and the uniform. In fact the first comment/PM that gets it correct can have a nice drabble of your choice.

// Prologue\\

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KitaKeiko: Show off the hat

[Complete] Tempting Serpent

Title: Tempting Serpent
Fandom: Revolutionary Girl Utena
Play/Lines:Othello: “Beware, my lord, of jealousy! It is the green-eyed monster which doth mock the meat it feeds on.” –Iago (III.iii.187-89)
Rating & Warnings: T, some dialogue from episode 17
Summary: She was nothing special, except in her own eyes.
Notes: For 10_shakespeare. Wow, what a gap of time between the last one and this. Most terribly sorry if this seemed OOC, as I'm getting back into the Utena fandom again.

Set in the same setting as "Clockwork".

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☿Ami☿ My nerd is showing

People can be so narrow-minded.

I'm sure it's making rounds everywhere but here's the meme in question:



And people are legit angry that it's either 1 or it's 9. I reblogged it with my explanation:

"LOL TROLLING. As a matter of fact, the equation above is ambiguous leading people to believe it’s either

(6/2) x (1+2)= 9

OR

6/ [2(1+2)]= 1

You know that illusion of seeing either a young lady or the face of an old woman? SAME CONCEPT."


Of course I read the notes, and all I'm getting is PEMDAS thrown at my face (The order of operations goes Parentheses, Exponents, Multiplication/Division, Addition/Subtraction).

FUCK PEMDAS, FUCK ORDER OF OPERATIONS. If people can't see that the lousy division slash and the fact that there's nothing to clarify the 2(1+2) makes the equation ambiguous then I have no hope for the math curriculum.

I'm not even a math major, but I wonder why people can't see beyond what they're told.